Wrong parasite protocol, and the nightmare began
This was October 2007. I went to an ND who I believe was very good at treating candida, but knew very litlle about parasites. He was very attentive and serious, the visit lasted about 3h and he ordered extensive blood tests, also urine and stool. He wanted to confirm my problem was candida through blood tests (which he did).
In my first visit he prescribed, a strict candida diet (no sugar, no dairy, no legums, no grains – whole or refined- I was only permitted vegetables, meat, fish, eggs, and some fruits) and several supplements, gut flora included. Among the supplements, there was the Wormwood & Black Walnut Formula for the parasites– this contained wormwood, fennel seed, black walnut leaf, fenugreek and garlic. I had to take the formula 3 times a day for a month. So yes, I would go into a parasite protocol without eating any sugar, or having almost any glucose intake.
The moment I started on all the supplements, I knew something was not ok. In a few days, my bowel moments started being totally bright green, smelly, and greasy. A month and a half later, when I started including legumes or whole grains in my diet, there was completely undigested food in my bowel movements, not “pieces” of food, I mean whole peas or whole lentils.
Neurologically, I started experiencing very scary symptoms. I had a constant sensation of irreality (I’ve never tried drugs, so I don’t know what it feels like, but I felt “drugged”), like if I wasn’t part of the outside world. It was hard for me to think clearly. This had nothing to do with the drowsiness you feel after light surgery, for example, or on strong pain medication (I’m familiar with this). It had nothing to do with any neurological symptoms I’ve experienced before or after in my life. Of everything that had been going on till then, this scared me the most.
When a few months went by and the neurological symptoms remained, I was asking myself if I was going to be the same person again, or if I was going to be able to work normally, as I really felt “I could not think properly”. (By March or April 2008, neurologically, I started to feel myself again… so the symptoms persisted about 6 months, continued 5 months after having ended the protocol).
I didn’t really know which of the things I was taking was making my body go wakoo, but the question that comes easily to mind is: “why did you go on with the protocol?” Well, this is something that I probably wouldn’t do now. I think feeling bad during a protocol may be a good sign sometimes, but if you are getting a whole list of new symptoms, and feel much worse than you’ve been feeling, the effect of the protocol should be at least questioned. But I was starting to feel desperate. It seemed like my practitioner knew what he was doing, so I just went on. I just wanted to solve everything and get on with my life. As we have been educated to believe and expect in medicine, I thought a magic pill would just make everything go away. AND I had never listened to my body either.
I was in contact with my practitioner during that month. I did tell him everything that was going on. Regarding bowel symptoms, at this moment he was unsure of what was going on (he later had an interpretation that I will discuss in future posts). Regarding neurological symptoms, he was sure we were killing the parasites and their toxins were causing me “die off” symptoms. Although I kept having the pinworm feeling all along the protocol. I knew we weren’t killing those. I hoped they would disappear if I continued the protocol for the whole month.
About ten days after I ended the Wormwood & BlackWalnut Formula, I started experiencing what I later knew others had named “scattering”. This totally sent me into desperation mode. I cried a lot on a daily basis. Scattering is VERY scary and can turn your life and health into a horror movie. I now know my scattering episode, at the time, was not as terrible as others have experienced, or as I’m experiencing now (which is still not as terrible as others have encountered). Back then, probably my problems with parasites had just began, and therefore I did not have a huge parasite load. For some time, though, I trully believed I was the only person in the world who was experiencing such a problem and that no one would ever believe me, or would be able to help me for that matter. I feared for my life at the beginning, but later on at least I realized that it looked like by body was coping and I was not going to die yet.
It’s only been 6 years since all of this happened, but now I realize that being so young with no previous health issues or experience with dealing with skepticals doctors, did not help me at all, psychologically speaking. The fact that I was still living with my parents… helped even less. Relatives can make things much worse when they don’t even consider for one second, that you may be sick and not crazy.
But, what does scattering feel like? I’ll try to describe it as objectively as possible in my next post.
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