Candida spreads fast! (Part 2)
In my last posts I’ve been describing my onset of parasites and candida symptoms. So, how was I dealing with all of this emotionally? Emotions play a big role in dealing with health situations, and I feel that even more when one may feel sick + misunderstood.
I think of everything that was going on back then, psychologically, for me, the worst was the fact that test results were systematically coming back negative for EVERYTHING that was going on with me! I only had a positive for the cystitis (What that this say about modern medicine test reliance?) I was young. I was a person who liked to have everything under control (I’ve grown up a lot about this). I couldn’t understand.
By June I started to stress out: small health issues were adding up to other health issues, tests were coming back negative, my parents thought I was delusional about parasites (I was still living with them at the moment), and I felt I could loose the most important thing for me back then - I had been in a romantic relationship for 6 months at the time, and it was hard for me to deal with everything that was going on in that context. I have to confess, I was genuinely in love in a healthy relationship (I’m still in love with this person!), but not a big example of self confident at that moment, and I was afraid of loosing a beautiful thing because the situation was a little nuts, and it was easy for someone else to think I was the one who was nuts! (I was lucky he never did, and still doesn’t). Also, following doctors recommendations, I even had to medicate my partner orally two times for candida in the course of 3 months (to avoid reinfection), some time later he even followed a candida diet for some time (not long) with me, because a doctor recommended that we both did. Maybe some of you are thinking, wow, this guy is a saint! (He’s a good guy, not a saint). Well, now that we know each other really well, it may not be that surprising that he supports me. But, at that time, yes, I think it was quite surprising that a 23-year old guy reacted so maturely. Although I was the one who was suffering, I felt really bad for him too, for us, and totally out of control.
Plus, the coincidence in time of my new relationship and my onset of symptoms started to worry me too. He had a cat. By then I had read a little bit about parasites and I knew pets could be heavy carriers. Doctors told me they were carriers. I felt the trigger of my issues had been parasites, and candida was a result of the imbalance that my body was starting to suffer. Even with him being as comprehensive, it really crossed my mind that I would have to let everything go because his cat or his house was making me sick. Some months later, we stopped seeing each other for a month or two (I decided), because everything was being too much for me! I did share my suspicions with him almost from the beginning. But all his family was apparently healthy, so at that point, I felt it wasn’t like I could tell them to deworm their cat and disinfect their home (now I would!). During that year, sometimes I felt I would have to choose between love and health. Eventually, the relationship continued but I would avoid his house if I could, and he would always be very cautious about hygiene.
It's good to hear that your partner supports you and understands.
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