In my last post I described how my relatives and close friends were reacting to my health situation. Back then there was no doctor I could get to really listen. I was “lucky” most of them were not disrespectful, just looked at me with skepticism or with a weird face and went into the talk about stress and psychosomatic symptoms “we are not saying you’re crazy, there are so many symptoms to stress and so many things you might be feeling” - but I’ve been in my body my whole life and NEVER imagined things/dealt with stress symptoms I wasn’t categorizing as stress myself. I’m been a sane person so far – doesn’t this count? And then came the “maybe you should talk to someone about this” - meaning I’ll write you a slip for the psychiatrist. A couple treated me well but didn’t make a single effort to get closer to the situation. What I was experimenting/saying I was experimenting was off the grid to them. But I was so grateful at the ones that at least treated me with respect.
Over the last years I’ve been out in the world and become a little wiser (or at least I hope so…), as we all do with years. I’ve made my thinking. These are my thoughts and my feelings, I may be wrong, right, or probably in the middle. I’m just a patient. I have never been to medical school or worked with doctors. I really don’t know how doctors think. So this is my opinion, please don’t take it personally if you are a doctor.
I’ve written about what I was dealing by the end of 2007 and beginning of 2008. I was 23 back then. I was still at my parents.
This is not an easy post for me, but I think it might help someone, so I’m going to be opened about how my family and friends were reacting to my situation. I think someone might be going through something similar, and maybe this helps so you don’t feel so lonely. Good thing is, you will probably find some support, eventually. Even if it is only online with people who have gone through similar circumstances and totally understand what you’re going through.
I’m interrupting the posts about my story to tell about a seminar I attended a couple of months. It was a seminar on parasites for alternative health professionals that took place in my city. Went there to see if I could meet someone who was able to help and/or shed some light on my situation. It ended up being interesting and enriching, both from a learning point of view and a humane point of view. I received a lot of info there and I’m going to try to summarize the most important points here in case it may help someone. The main speaker was a doctor (yes, someone actually with a medical degree!) and has a PhD too. I talked to him about my story and he actually looked at me with understanding. Beautiful feeling. I felt very relieved. This doctor was aware of scattering and acknowledges disseminated infections and that a big diversity of symptoms or health ailments may be caused by parasites.
Important points discussed at the seminar:
People in health forums talk about “scattering” when dealing with serious parasite infections that get out of control. They talk about “feeling parasites” in weird places. Scattering is comprised of many different feelings, sensations and symptoms that go hand-in-hand. This starts simultaneously and increases after taking the wrong dose or combination of antihelmintic medication or herbs. I think this is important to point out. It is not a person feeling something weird here and there and figuring out it must be parasites. It is a framework of sensations and symptoms that happen in people with a determined health situation, many times after taking a particular medication or treatment. Plus, there are lab tests that have been carried out and proved these infections are real.
When describing these sensations people talk about wiggling, twitching, tickling, biting, etc. aside from more serious physical symptoms. I’ll try to describe as best as possible what it feels like for me. This is just my experience.
So, by approximately December 2007 and in less than a year, I had gone from feeling healthy, in love, and with a future that seemed full of possibilities (I was finishing my degree and was eager to get a job related to my studies and stop the student jobs), to sick, doubting that my relationship would be able to handle the nutty circumstances (we had already spent more time together with me being sick than healthy), living a close to hell situation at home (because of my parents thinking I was delusional and not handling the situation AT ALL) and doubting my professional future too.
I was not in a good place, physically or emotionally.
Below, the symptoms that I was experiencing, my ND’s opinion at that point, and the temporal or definitive solution that was found to the problem. By this time, I still had the on and off nausea, bloating, stomach pains; although not as persistent as in the beginning of infection. Pinworm feeling in rectum also remained. But, symptoms that scared me most were: